I have always tried to impress you, yet I regress to a child under your stern gaze, the disappointment like an angry fire causing me distress and leaving me unable to express anything other than whispered apologies.
I try and study all the terminologies and methodologies I need to pass my exams, yet even if I pass you have the brass neck to say I could have done better. I could have worked harder. Sowing doubts in my brain like you sow a patch on a quilt, filling me with guilt and all the confidence in myself that I had just rebuilt comes crashing down around my ears.
You tell me I’m far too trusting, but the truth of the matter is that the part of my brain responsible for trusting is slowing rusting like the pedals on a bike, going round in circles but not moving and the situation never improving but instead in a downward spiral and the consequences will undoubtedly be tidal but why am I the one of trial, I’m not In denial, you are the one that put me here.
You remind me every day about my weight, like the bait you put at the end of a fishing rod as a temptation I bite and despite knowing the truth behind your words I fight until I am out of breath and the words I want to say are ripped away like a script. The same words repeated again and again, falling of deaf ears with my tears slowly drowning me.
Stop looking in the mirror and everything will become that little bit clearer. Please consider how your acts of self-deprecation will slowly kill her….. will slowly kill you. There is a glimmer of hope if you just stop standing there, don’t criticize, stop looking at the world through squinted eyes, watching the slow demise of your life.
You are worth more. You can explore endless possibilities if you just ignore the screaming. I am telling you to you breathe through the negativity and start to knock down the walls of your captivity which is keeping you prisoner inside of your own head and shed that coat of despair which has being weighing you down like a lead balloon, the string beginning to unravel the cocoon which you were wrapped so tightly in.
I try and study all the terminologies and methodologies I need to pass my exams, yet even if I pass you have the brass neck to say I could have done better. I could have worked harder. Sowing doubts in my brain like you sow a patch on a quilt, filling me with guilt and all the confidence in myself that I had just rebuilt comes crashing down around my ears.
You tell me I’m far too trusting, but the truth of the matter is that the part of my brain responsible for trusting is slowing rusting like the pedals on a bike, going round in circles but not moving and the situation never improving but instead in a downward spiral and the consequences will undoubtedly be tidal but why am I the one of trial, I’m not In denial, you are the one that put me here.
You remind me every day about my weight, like the bait you put at the end of a fishing rod as a temptation I bite and despite knowing the truth behind your words I fight until I am out of breath and the words I want to say are ripped away like a script. The same words repeated again and again, falling of deaf ears with my tears slowly drowning me.
Stop looking in the mirror and everything will become that little bit clearer. Please consider how your acts of self-deprecation will slowly kill her….. will slowly kill you. There is a glimmer of hope if you just stop standing there, don’t criticize, stop looking at the world through squinted eyes, watching the slow demise of your life.
You are worth more. You can explore endless possibilities if you just ignore the screaming. I am telling you to you breathe through the negativity and start to knock down the walls of your captivity which is keeping you prisoner inside of your own head and shed that coat of despair which has being weighing you down like a lead balloon, the string beginning to unravel the cocoon which you were wrapped so tightly in.